Oh sweetie, I’m so sorry to hear that! :( It breaks my heart to hear you say that hate has become a second nature to you. Don’t worry though, you can definitely change that! It all starts, and ends, with self-love. If you’ve been around my blog for a while, you know that radical self-love is something that I feel very strongly about, as taking the time to be kind to myself and strive to find the positive in everything has definitely changed my life for the better (and I’m pretty sure it will for you, too).
I’ve written two articles on my blog that I think will be especially relevant for you. Here they are :
These should definitely give you some pointers on how to let go of the hatred and envy and start appreciating YOURSELF for the wonderful person that you are. No one deserves to hate themselves and EVERYONE deserves to see themselves with kindness and love.
I hope this helped a little bit but if not, please write again and I’ll do what I can! Lots of love xxx